Alright, I don't know about you all, but the last two weeks have been a test of will in more ways than one. Do you ever feel like the list just never ends? Like no matter what you start and finish, there is no rest to be had...you just have to move on to the next box to put a checkmark in. Can I ask why it seems when I'm having a run of tiring days or overwhelming weeks that most people I run in to during that time are experiencing the exact same thing? I can't decide if it's the barometric pressure (can it be a full moon for 15 days straight?) or if it's the old saying...Like Attracts Like. I'm afraid it's the latter.
Which is what scared me into making this a better week for myself. Yes, you read that right...I SCARED myself into a better attitude. Why do I use the word scared? Because eventually I get sick and tired of being sick and tired and I just want to feel better already! And it scares me that the only person that can truly turn my act around is me. Yep, that goes for you too. Sorry.
A friend of mine pointed out to me the other day that the auto-type on their phone immediately changes the word 'scared' to 'scarred'. Made me think...those two words go hand-in-hand, don't they? What scares us is a result of our scars, our beliefs we've come to carry because of our past experiences. Do you ever dream about living an extraordinary life? Are you? If not, what is your fear? What scares you so badly that you let your scars get in your way? I know what some of mine are, and to even say them out loud makes me cringe, because they're the very thoughts I'm trying to get out of my head in order to move forward with my goals. My scars are visible through my actions - or at some times, my lack of action.
So what made me change this week? I decided. Yes my friends, simple as that. I decided. I decided to wake up, say a quick prayer for myself ("God, please clear my thoughts and open my heart"), tell myself that I have a lot of energy (ok, coffee helps), and go about my day as if it were awesome. And you know what happened? It was. Awesome. Funny how that happens.
So The Average Jill moral is this: no matter what your list looks like, no matter how many check-boxes you need to fill, please...for the love of god Please...decide to go about it with a clear mind and open heart. We all feel overwhelmed when we're caught in the whirlwind of day after day, week after week, month after month, year by year. Ask yourself, how long do you want to live like that? It's your decision, you know. No one else is living your life. Remember what I said in my first blog? No one gives a crap what you do or don't do...they're too busy thinking about themselves! Life's too short to see each passing day float by because you had too many errands to run or too many kids events to go to. Slow down for Pete's sake and BE QUIET. Try it. You'll like it.
I invite you to post in response to the questions I just posed, and even share what you're struggling with in your day to day whirlwind. Trust me, you're not alone in the rat race. We're all trying to get to the better days ahead. And there ARE better days coming, if you decide to let them.
